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Love, have you finally returned from outer space?

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 11:52:04 +0000

Was it cold up there?
Did you feel alone?
Was the silence too much to bear?
Have you lost your mind?
Or did you just leave it behind?

Your eyes were glazed over, I couldn’t get to you, we were right next to one another yet you were still so far away.
Part of me thinks you left your heart in outer space because you couldn’t handle seeing the monstrosities our world has shown you day after day.
“In outer space everything is so… peaceful,” you whispered to me one night and that is when placed my head against your chest.

Silence.

Your heart, it beats up there in outer space, a steady ‘lub-dub‘ sound filling the emptiness.
Sometimes when I shut my eyes and hold my breath whilst listening to the cold night air I think I can hear it up there.
One day I hope we can escape together, we’ll get your heart back and we’ll drift in outer space till the day our hearts stop beating.

Forever drifting.

We fight.

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 18:27:15 +0000

We yell and scream and cry.
We tussle in each others arms and break away only to feel empty longing for the others touch even if it was fueled by anger.
Dangerous is what we are yet we can’t break away from one another.
We’re going down and we know that everything will crumble into pieces.
Yet we continue.
We yell and we scream and we cry once more.
And we end up tangled in each others arms too happy to speak.
Too happy to yell or to scream or to cry.
Blinded by happiness and our embrace.
We forget what it is we were fighting for.
And pray to never feel empty again only to have this happen all over again.
Volatile song birds is all we’ll ever be.

You are like the smoke in the air, always there yet always slipping through my fingers.

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 17:56:07 +0000

Why wont you return to me my love?
How dare you say you mean nothing to me when you’ve opened my eyes to the world?
I’ve learned so much from you dear, but you make me fear what I’m becoming.
I ran away only to end up right back in your arms.
Now that you’ve turned away from me my eyes have been once again closed.
What is there left in this abyss when there is nothing to hold on to?
If you return me, I ask for only one thing.
Hold me love, like the world was about to crumble beneath our feet.
Hold me because in your arms and only yours, I feel safe once more.

I want someone who I can get lost in,

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 08:19:27 +0000

Someone who wants to get to know me.

Who cares about the person I am.
Who will share themselves with me.
Who can laugh with me at the most redundant things.
Who can put up with me singing around him twenty-four, seven.
Who will let me be affectionate and goofy.
Who will see that what we are is an adventure and will not expect the world from me.
Who will know that I will love everything about him as long as he lets me in.

I’m confused, how should I feel when you’ve been so very wonderful to me?

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 06:36:20 +0000

Should I shy away?
Should I leave you be?
But how could I when you constantly compliment me?
You tell me that there is nothing here.
How can that be true when my heart flutters at the thought of you?
This is ridiculous, you cannot be serious!
You’ve whispered my name, for that I am sure, but why oh why would you do such a thing?
You blame the ocean and you blame the stars.
I hate how you believe that would keep you from my heart.
How you’ve toyed with it is appalling when you call yourself a gentleman.
I believed that of you but now I can’t be sure, when you’ve given your love to another.
How does it feel to love but not wholly?
How does it feel to watch me wallow in my self pity?

For this ache in my heart will not waver.
You will stay there for now and forever.

In thought,

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 17:09:27 +0000

I’m constantly in thought.
Perhaps I over think.
Perhaps I made these emotions up.
I wonder if what I felt feel was is real?
I can’t push you away, yet I can’t have you to call my own.
Here I lie, alone in this room and all I can do is cry.
Pathetic I know.
I feel so very much.
Yet I am so very alone.
Forget?
How do I forget this?
How do I forget you?
I can’t, you wont let me.
But you wont let me have you either.
I lose in the end.
I lose it all.

Madness, Madness.

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 14:52:03 +0000

“You’re mad!” They screamed.

But am I really darling?
In this place nothing makes any sense.
Turn the world upside down and there would still be no frowns.
Its all smiles.
Its all smiles darling.
No need for tears when I have nothing to fear.
Nothing.
Nothing.
That’s right baby I’m not afraid of anything.
Not you, not him, not nothing.
If anything you should fear me darling.
I could do anything, yes I could do anything.
When I fear nothing, I can do anything.
Anything to you, I would feel nothing.
Because I fear nothing darling, I fear nothing.
In this place no one feels anything.
I have no boundaries.
I have no fear.
No one does here, baby.
Because we’re all mad, we’re all mad, don’t be scared soon you’ll be one of us too.
It doesn’t take long, you wont make a sound, before you realise it you would have already fallen, down the rabbit hole and into insanity.
Isn’t it nice, isn’t it nice, to fear nothing darling?

Now they are screaming “You’re mad too!”
But baby you know the story, you know the way, make them feel the same, the same as us.

Let me in,

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 18:40:26 +0000

Let me know,
What you think,
Why you blink when I say no.
What is it that makes you say,
“I never liked you anyway.“
Is it the lies you find so attractive,
or is it the denial that keeps you running,
from everything you once held dear.
Let me ask you one last thing,
Please cry when I take my leave,
At least try to keep your dignity.

I realise,

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:48:14 +0000

That even if I wanted cherries,
it wouldn’t matter.
I could Yearn,
Dream,
And Beg for cherries and at the end of the day I wouldn’t get them.

Why?
They weren’t in season.

Just like you,
I could Yearn, Dream and Beg for you,
But at the end of the day I can’t have you.

I wonder,
When will you be in season?
In season for me.

You are just like sweet wine in the Summer,

mymindmywordsmythoughts — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:25:40 +0000

You have me high,
Dizzy and spinning all over the place.
Its funny how a single word can make me feel nothing when spoken by a stranger,
but when you are the one that speaks it, my heart will flutter as if there were a million tiny butterflies in my chest.
The things you do for me make me smile, they may just be hints but sometimes a hint is more than enough.
I wonder if one day you and I would find a clearing in the forest and sing along to our favourite songs at the top of our lungs.
We would dance and laugh and forget the world and every problem we had ever faced.
No one would hear us, no one would know, a moment so perfect, a moment for you and I alone, something to call our own.